{written on 2-23-12 – 4w5d}
It’s funny, because as obviously thrilled as I am that I’m pregnant again, it feels totally different than when I found out I was pregnant the 1st time. The shock and awe of that one has been replaced by an “Awesome, let’s do this!” mentality this time around.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m ecstatic that we’re having another baby! That was the whole point of trying again. I just have a completely different mindset right now.
Instead of “OHMYGOD I have no idea what we’re going to need!”, it’s “Ok, we have all the baby stuff and clothes up in the attic and the furniture in D’s room.”
Instead of “Holy shit what is my body going to do?”, it’s “Ok, I’ll just wait for my body to do this and this and this again.”
Instead of “I AM FREAKING OUT!!”, it’s “Yeah, this great! We’re gonna have another baby, and D’s gonna be a great big sister!”
Much calmer now, as you can see.
I know every pregnancy is different and I can’t necessarily predict what will happen with this one based solely on how the first one went, but it’s not totally uncharted territory for me anymore. We’ve been down this road before and I’m now much more confident the 2nd time.
Even R’s reaction last night was different. He was certainly happy and excited too, but he was funny when he went to bed. He gave me a kiss and said, “Well, congrats, I guess. You ready for this?”
Nerd. 🙂
Of course I’m ready. I replied, “Yep. Are you?”
He’s such a great dad already I have no doubt that he’ll be even better with more.
That’s the other thing – we’re already parents, and I think we’re pretty good ones. So now I don’t have the same “What if I fail?” feeling that sometimes crept in when I was pregnant with D. We’re not heading into the great unknown.
Yeah, we’ve got this.
Bring it on Rauling #2! We can’t wait to meet you.
I don’t have my 1st OB appointment until March 14, but right now my estimated due date is October 31, 2012. A Halloween baby! Our own lil’ spook.
Squeak and Spook. I like it.
**ETA: I’ve obviously had that 1st OB appt., and my due date is October 27. So I wasn’t too far off.