As of today, that’s how long I’ve been back at work after having D. 1 entire year. Hmm, how do I feel about that?
Well, I’d still much rather be either working from home or staying home period so I could be with her full-time instead of having to use daycare. So there’s that. Fortunately we do love her daycare, and I know she has a great time there, as evidenced by her smiles and waves good-bye most every morning. Plus she’s learning a lot, so I’m definitely not complaining about the caliber of daycare. It’s just needing it period that I’d rather not have.
How is work? Well, in some respects it’s better than when I first came back. As in I no longer feel like I’m fighting for my own goddamn job every single day. In other respects it’s worse, as in see paragraph above… So I guess the answer to this one is my standard “Work is work.”
How is D? Awesome, of course. The difference between November 8, 2010, and November 8, 2011, just in her alone is astonishing. A little photographic comparison for you… Then:
And now:
For those 2 pictures from last year I had to search all the way back through my text messages from R from that day, which I found amusing. All you working mamas know how heart-wrenching that first day back at your desk and away from your baby is, so here’s a little peek at how I was feeling that day:
A whole year, eh? Crazy. I will tell you 1 thing that hasn’t changed since that first day back last year, though, not even in the slightest. The moment I get to leave work to go pick up D, see her smiley little face again, and know we get to spend the rest of the night all together at home is still the highlight of my day. I have a feeling that won’t ever change, either.
Its just so crazy to see how different they were even a year ago. The struggles you faced then are more managable now and yet you still love her more than ever. Parenthood is amazing. Hope you have an awesome day at work lady!!
@aliwayout You’re so right – I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately, how the things we thought were “so hard” last year at this time we don’t even have to give a thought to today. Parenthood is so much better in every aspect than I ever imagined. Thank you!!
it’s really funny to read through your texts, as chappy and I are living that right now. that is exactly how our conversations are with each other or with the daycare. its funny to see how similar an experience we all have, even though we and the babes are all so different. I agree though, parenthood is amazing!
@KatieChapman Aren’t they entertaining? I was glad they were all still there in my history to pull up. I agree about our experiences, and I’m so glad all these little ones will have each other to grow up with!
D is absolutely precious! Thanks for stopping by on my SITS day today!!
You’re quite welcome! And thank you!!
What a difference a year makes! What a cutie!
@shellthings Thank you, Shell!!
Your baby is adorable. I am a working mom too and it is tough!!!
@hgravely Thank you so much! I know, I totally hear you. I honestly thought I’d be fine going back to work after having a baby, no big deal at all. Wow was I wrong. I mean the job itself is fine, and like I said we truly do love her daycare, but I never in a million years expected just how much I would want to be able to stay home with her. Ah well, maybe someday…
@_ScooterMarie I didn’t think it was a big deal either. Until I had to do it. I love my job, and he has a great day… But I miss him all day!